{ this is a skill i’ve been using a lot lately, thought i’d share :) }

     {  Distress Tolerance Skill: Coloring Mandalas


     1}   go to and print a couple of mandalas that you like. (you can also find some on google images.)
     2}   buy set of colored pencils or markers if you don’t have them. more colors = better
     3}   buy a clipboard if you wanna lie in bed and color.
     4}   set these aside and ready to go so they are easily accessible when you are distressed


     1}   choose a mandala from your pre-printed stash
     2}   set a timer (phone is good) for 30 minutes
     3}   color it with ur markers or pencils. i prefer pencils.
     4}   optional: play an audiobook or music while coloring. make sure it’s not sad music.
     5}   when timer goes off, stop coloring. ask yourself, what level is my distress right now? if still high, set timer for another 30 minutes and keep coloring. if tolerable, stop coloring and do thing you want to do.
     6}   repeat as needed until distress is tolerable


     coloring patterns is distracting enough to pull your attention away from negative thoughts/emotions, but mandalas are also repetitive so you can kind of “zone out” while coloring. it feels good being able to create something and you feel a sense of competency or confidence. there’s no competitive aspect to it so you can just do the activity without having to worry about doing it perfect or right or better than anyone else. it can remind you of a simpler time when all that was expected of you was coloring. :) it is easy and almost everyone can do it.


    — stick to the timer. even though you want to keep coloring when it goes off, stop once you finish the segment you’re on and put the pencil down. tell yourself you can come back and finish it after you do the thing you’re putting off.

    — you can do this activity without using a timer, especially if you don’t have anything planned for the rest of the day and aren’t using this to distract from a task :)) 

    — practice coloring during times when you’re not distressed, so that when you need to use this skill it will be easier and more “automatic”. i can’t stress this enough. even though coloring is really simple, it’s much better for the activity to feel familiar so that you can easily use it during distress. so if you can practice it during normal times it’ll help u. think of it as homework if you have to — you are building up a memory muscle.

    — if you feel guilty because you’re “wasting time” doing a “childish activity”, remind urself that ur doing this for your mental health, that this is an established skill recommended by top psychotherapists, and that calming down your distress so you can actually *do* the stuff you’re worried about (rather than procrastinating all day about the thing and not actually doing it) is the opposite of wasting time. remember that practicing this skill even when you’re not distressed is HOMEWORK, not optional time wasting thing. also, taking care of ur mental health is not a frivolous activity. it’s very important and crucial to a happy successful life.

I’d like to add that coloring inside the lines neatly and skillfully is something that impresses the fuck out of most artists. Yes, even professional working artists. I have seen artists genuinely lose their shit with admiration when someone could color inside all the lines (sometimes that artist is me). SO if you’re coloring and thinking ‘this is dumb i’m not an artist i bet an artist would laugh at me’ be assured most artists would actually be hooting enviously at you and then asking to borrow your crayons.


Ghetto Au things from twitter lol…..






I have a headcanon that Shuu gets really excited when he reads books he likes a lot. 


His feverish pacing may have worn a trail in his expensive carpet but he just.can’

His final term paper is due next week and today was his weekly ‘date’ with the Kaneki household. He just couldn’t choose, suprisingly. Sure he can do the paper later but, what if Kaneki has other plans that needs his assistance then? For sure his paper will be ignored and he might have a -dieu ne plaise- failed grade on a paper and that just won’t do.

Sighing, he made up his mind and packed his bag.


Cheerful Hinami was the one who opened the door for him - as usual- when he knocked.

' Flower man! You were late! I thought you had forgotten about it or got hurt somewhere..?' Little Hinami looked at him up and down, pleased when she find no injuries.

' Forget? I would never ma fleur! I was simply….delayed. That's all' Tsukiyama replied cheerily while he unconciously fidgeted with the strap of his bag, again.

'….. Just get inside already.'

Tsukiyama perked up when he heard the voice so close.

'Of course Kaneki-kun! Excusez moi…' Gently pushing Hinami into the apartment, he closed the door behind him and took off his shoes. (and missed Kaneki looking him in similar way to Hinami, and gave a small smile at Tsukiyama's lack of injury)

Putting his book bag on the sofa, he went and joined both Kaneki and Hinami at the dining table and spend the time cheerfully talking with the little Fleur, with Kaneki inputting his opinions now and then.


'What's that bag you've been carrying, Flower man? Is it more books for Kaneki nii-chan?'

'Non. Not this time ma fleur. This is actually my homework.' Tsukiyama replied as he took his stuffs (books, papers, pencils, the like) out from his bag onto the living room table.

Both Hinami and Kaneki (though less obvious) perked up in interest.

'You go to school, Flower man?'

'Oui. And this will be my final homework before I graduate. So do forgive me for unable to play with you tonight, dear Hinami.'

Hinami smiled, shaking his head.

'It's ok Tsukiyama nii-chan. I'll just continue reading the book Kaneki nii-chan lend me!' 

Throwing a a glance at Kaneki who was sitting on the sofa opposite him, he nodded.

'Very well. Have fun reading Hinami-chan.'


Because the ache in his neck was getting in the way of his work, Tsukiyama decided to take a break and stretch. And suprises himself when his bones crack with an audible snap when he did.

Blinking, he looked at the clock behind him and was shocked to see it already midnight, at least 4 hours since he started working on his assignment.

'…you do work hard when the situation calls for it.'

Tsukiyama nearly jumped, and his eyes immedietly snapped to Kaneki, who was still in the same position he last saw him, albeit more relaxed than before.

His eyes must have been questioning because Kaneki spoke again.

'Hinami went to bed an hour ago. She bade you goodnight but I guess you were too absorbed to hear her.'

Tsukiyama nodded dumbly, leaning back into the sofa, mind ablaze with questions.

Was Kaneki there this whole time? Watching him? He felt like preening in delight that Kaneki was paying him attention, but sort of unnerved that he let his guard down like that, with Kaneki watching nonetheless.

'… take Humanities in college right?'

He nodded, mind still buzzing with thoughts in the background.

'Oui, mon cheri.'

'Knowing you and your… belief in the strong eating the weak, I am suprised you took this course. It just… I don't understand.'

Kaneki looked a bit like the old him again in that moment. Eyes bright and curious, and Tsukiyama is more than delighted to answer and indulge him.

'Indeed so, Kaneki-kun. But I've always been…. fascinated with human morale and their society's structure.'

Leaning further into the sofa, Tsukiyama felt a calmness spread in his veins, and Kaneki’s intoxicating scent was doing wonders to him.

' Biologically, Ghouls are more fitted to survive in the wild. The strong one in nature. And yet…humans, who are far more inferior compared to us ghouls, has such…confidence in their ability to survive and somehow care for their weak and old at the same time. It… has always fascinated me since childhood…and perhaps some envy as well.’

That last part came out without Tsukiyama ever meaning it too. But it was true. Still is. He remembers vividly of himself being bullied during childhood due to his strange habits, hated his bullies so much but unable to retaliate because of obvious reasons.

And yet, his bullies are still so respectable to their old. Gave them care and love and shared their belongings with them. Little Tsukiyama couldn’t understand it. There was no ‘old’ ghouls in his life. The weak are always gotten rid off, and the few ‘old’ ghouls he ever met was old and much richer and stronger than his parents. So unlike the old of humans. It puzzles him.

The heady scent of Kaneki and a warm pressure on his lips snapped him out of his reverie.

He froze. Did Kaneki just…?

Kaneki grinned.

'Sorry. I just couldn't resist. You just looked so…' A thoughtful pause. '…so cute thinking there I can't help giving you a kiss.'

Tsukiyama blushed.

'N-no need to a-apologize Kaneki-kun!! Er… I'm sorry for spacing out on you..haha..'

He swears he can hear his heart beat like a hummingbird and Kaneki widened his grin.

'Maybe I should do this more often… you look adorable flustered, Tsukiyama.'

Before he could reply, Kaneki leaned in and gave him another peck on the lips. And then gave a devious chuckle and left the living room, leaving a flustered Tsukiyama alone and amusingly, quite hard, behind.


Closing the room to his door gently and locking it (out of habit), he let his knees gave out underneath him and slumped against his bedroom door, the blush he’s been reigning in spreading from his cheeks to his neck.

What the hell did I just do?!

Kaneki facepalmed, hardly believing he just kissed Tsukiyama on the lips, twice.

What has gotten into him?!

But, Kaneki mused, he honestly couldn’t resist. Seeing Tsukiyama like that…. so unlike his usual self, all sad and wistful smiles curving his lips as his mind wandered instead of the usual arrogance… he was too cute and unnerving at the same time. Kaneki sucked at comforting people so he let his instinct drove him…

Blushing again, Kaneki recalled Tsukiyama’s firm yet chapped lips and his taste… mint and lavender… with the faintest hint of peonies…

How intoxicating.

Kaneki facepalmed again.

How the hell is he going to look Tsukiyama in the face next time?!







is this an actual screenshot →


someone please tell me where this comes from

(from what i see i think it’s from the OVA but?)


Alexander Sergeyevich Pushkin, “I Loved You”


Alexander Sergeyevich Pushkin, “I Loved You”